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I usually don't talk about Gossip Girl these days but...

( cut for spoilers for 2x18 - The Age of Dissonance )

We're having a UN roleplay this year (again) at school and now that I'm in the senior class it's time for me to step up and make a speech that won't embarrass the hell out of me like last year - but now when I remember last year it was good fun do more stuff actively in that roleplay and this year I'm becoming Russia! In a way a challenge because I had hoped for a less... I don't know. But nevertheless, I have to start researching Russia as well as I can now so that I'm well-prepared, even if I don't know the subject yet. I'm a dork like that. But if it's something about the environment, I'm going to be seriously displeased. I have a 50 point course that focuses on environmental politics. I hope this year is going to be good.

If anyone wants to help me get info on Russia, that would be greatly appreciated. Are there any subjects which Russia really has strong believes in? I happen to know that their environmental awareness might not be the best in the world... Or so I claimed when I researched it for class earlier.

Now I'm going to watch the rest of Che: Part One with Benicio del Torro ♥ (another reminder why I'm still taking Spanish class!)

I need to remove this cold. ASAP.

I'm going to write a paper on the pros and cons of Marxism (we're doing Political Philosophy and we're basically talking about the nature of state and now we're talking about Marxism and the latter is what our examination is about) for Philosophy class. I'm kind of psyched. Because I really like Philosophy as a subject and I want to learn about all political theories (some day liberalism and I are going to have a sit down where I'm going to try and understand it). We're going to see if this works out.

Minor question though: How the heck do you write a philosophical paper? I mean, you can't start off with facts and then work your way from there... Help? :)

I'm not really much of a Twilight fan (but I looove the actors) but I sort of had to use this icon. Damn them for being so pretty (although I cannot decide if Robert is handsome or... not. He has his hot moments but then a second later, he'll turn a complete 180. I'm terribly excited to see Little Ashes though - when does that premiere?).

I just saw Britney's documentary For the Record and I just have to say that when you see these pieces of what she's going through, you cannot help to feel bad for her. And I was a really big Britney fan when I was young so I can't help sympathizing with her. It cannot be easy being her. She's such an icon for the whole celebirty phenomenon it has to be hard to combine that with a normal life. I don't know. I really hope that she does well. And it was a good documentary I think. Have you guys seen it?

I start around 11.15 tomorrow, which is fantastic. I have to take a bus at 10.08 instead of 7.10 like I usually have to, which is wonderful in so many aspects. But I'm not going to spend that time sleeping, which might not be this great idea but I have these movies in my collection that I'm dying to see. I always have the worst self-restraint in the world. I cannot not watch a movie if I want to and I have some time over. It takes a great amount of energy and I don't know... I know it's sort of a bad idea, but... I want to, you know? I have a feeling that's a trait that's going to get me in trouble some day :P

I open the documents in order to write my History essay so that it's done. I'm prepared, I'm psyched, although somewhat terrified after reading about university applications, but as I open the document, I find something new: hopelessness. My head starts immediately to say that this essay won't be written.

I need to get through this. Now. Suggestions? What do you do in order to motivate yourself? Give me your secret tips?

I really got all of these Merlin fics swirling in my head but none of them can be written yet. I guess that towards of my watching, the episodes started to melt together and I need a new episode to refresh my mind. And especially since the next episode appears by all accounts to be absolutely wonders and exactly what I've been waiting for, I'm very excited.

There will be fics. I promise.

I've started to watch season four of Grey's Anatomy now. I really like Lexie. She reminds me a bit, physically, of Claire Danes back when she did My So-Called Life - they're very similar, don't you agree? I like this show, but sometimes when they drag the Izzie/George storyline up too much, it just goes all Days of Our Lives again. George is actually trying to be sensible and logical about it while Izzie runs around him appearing to be desperate, needy and completely childish not to mention stupid. But it's not worse than last year, thank god. I can't wait to watch more.

I've also decided that once I'm caught up, I'll watch it Swedish TV style. We're not too far behind the US from what I gather and potentially talking about the show in class seems very intriguing. In a way it's boring to always know what is going to happen to everyone before my classmates do and so forth.


Yeah, minor going back to the Grey's bit. I think my favourite characters so far in my season four watch has to be Lexie, Bailey, Karev, Sloan. I also really like Callie, which is weird, but I don't think I can call her my favourite yet. She's not that awesome. I also really like Chief.

Other than that, not so much going on with me. I'm just staring at my icons and sighing because I have to delete some and even though some of them are hideous - you sort of form an attachment to them you know? And you're not sure what to add in their stead. It feels like I want something, but I'm not sure what it is.

Now off to watch 4x04 :D

I own. Why do you ask? Well, I've just sat about three hours working on a movie analysis (the movie is Brokeback Mountain) for Swedish class and I'm currently up to six pages and it's just... generally awesome. Know how some papers just seem to magically go from mind to paper? It's one of those essays. I have a feeling I'll be really proud of this one people :D

Brokeback is such a glorious and wonderful film. ♥

I've now uploaded a few icons. Yay :D Even though the ad is kind of bothersome, I suppose I'll endure.

Anyway, I wish I could write a little bit more of what's going on with me, on a more personal level, but right now I think I'm in such an emotional turmoil that it's difficult to explain. Well, perhaps not difficult (since I can always always express myself better on paper) but I guess it wouldn't perhaps be the most interesting read to you all.

A sort of funny/interesting note, in my school, there's books missing because not everyone has bothered to return them and the value of these books you ask? Well, I'll tell you, a wooping 70,000 SEK (which I guess is about 11312,58 USD). Thankfully, I'm not a member in that crowd, thankfully. I've returned all my books.

I'm aaaaalmost done with school now. After the rest tomorrow, I'm 100% free. And then I have the Cambridge Proficiency Exam on the 12th (which I hope you'll keep your fingers crossed about, non? - For those who don't know what the CPE is, it's a comprehension certificate that shows how much English you know and Proficiency is the most difficult. Having this certificate makes it possible for me to study my university years abroad). Keep your fingers crossed non?

Happy birthday szmanda_fever! :D

I turned all my books today - well, except my Intercultural Communications book since I have a test tomorrow and I need to study. It feels so great that I have no missing books! :D It spares me from the pain of having to pay the school because of the missing books. Speaking of returning books, I will go to the library now after I've written this and return my Darfur books which I used for my International Relations essay. I'm also going to spend some time looking through their collection of books to see if I can't find anything interesting to read during my summer holiday.

So far I just have: Anna Karenina, War and Peace, Les Misérables and the Hunchback of Notre Dame. I might drop War and Peace because it doesn't feel very "summer friendly" reading about the Russian Revolution or whatever era it is (I heard about 50% of it is like a history book than anything else). Books about werewolves and vampires and stuff like that is something that I really want to get my hands on but unfortunately, this is not the US and books like that are hard to come by. Which totally blows.

Maybe if I do a wishlist I could wish it for my birthday? ;) No, seriously though, I don't think I'm gonna be making a wishlist for my birthday like I've done in the past because quite frankly, I know I can't afford to return the favour.

Anyway, the other day I really felt like I wanted to order some of the Fearless books (my favourite book series EVER, quite possibly beating Harry Potter, which I ended up not fancing so much not really digging the whole Harry/Ginny bits, which became painfully... painful towards the end) I haven't read. For those who are familiar with the book series (I know there's at least one of you! :D), I'm on the book... Tears. So I haven't read that much I guess but that's because they stopped printing them in Sweden because they became "too dark" or something for the young adult section and the adult section thought it was too much of a young adult book. For those who don't know the Fearless book series, you should seriously check it out.

What should I write about? Well, charmedgirl08 added me - welcome to my flist :D I hope you'll have an excellent time here. When I get home I think I'll write on my Supernatural fan fic till my sister comes. I also need to figure out a name for the whole thing. I also need to continue on the X-Men fan fiction I'm writing (Rogue/Wolverine) and I'm thinking about writing a longer Sarah Connor Chronicles fic. It seems as though science fiction is my piece of pie lately.

I'm sitting here with the application form for the courses I'm going to take next year. I'm only "allowed" to choose 150 points (but I don't have to choose anything since I already have enough points) but I want to take courses for 350 points and even though I probably can, chances are it's going to be too much and I had plans on making the third year somewhat less... hectic. And that goal will be impossible with 350 points over average.

At first I had plans only to take Spanish and Psychology B but then I thought it was too little, and I thought: "Hey, History B sounds like something up my alley" and I added that to my list. And then I realized that I would miss Niklas' lessons (he's my Maths teacher) so I added Maths B as well. And that is 350 points.

*headdesk* What to do? I'm in such a predicament.

I've decided since like I'm the only one that hasn't watched a single episode of Sex and the City, I thought I'd start now. I just watched the pilot and I'm at the beginning of the second episode. It's really interesting, it has some potential. I can get why people began to hype it so much.

I don't know why but every time I see an icon of Doctor Who, especially of David Tennant, I feel like posting something. I kinda love it.

Another thing I also really love today: my little sister. I haven't seen much of her today but she's in a good mood and she made chocolate balls (which I've been eating like crazy - I'm telling you, I'm gaining pounds by the second ;))

I was looking at the Office and it struck me how INCREDIBLY similar a guy in my class is to John Krasinski (for those of you who go in my class, you know Johan? I think he's really similar) not only physically but also a little bit in his mannerism. I don't know him so well so I can comment on his personality but... I don't know, something about him just strikes me as Jim-ish. I don't think you can find a closer Jim lookalike in real life, at least not around here.

Sometimes I really want to write a Supernatural fic but you know... Am I the only one who feels that the show is so awesome that it feels like you're... spoiling a perfect product? I mean, like you can't compete with the product they produce so, why bother? You know?

Am I alone in this feeling? I sort of makes me wish Supernatural was a bit more... bad, as horrible as it sounds. That way I would be able to write fic. :P