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I'm finally writing on my essay for Swedish class! You have no idea how much I need to get this finished this weekend. It's going to be like essay boot camp or something like that.

My dad moved their computer into the room I sleep in while I'm here so expect me to be online more now during the weekends I'm here :D

I was at the hospital, getting my treatment (a few shots that they give my leg - might sound a bit weird to you) and well... I was exhausted afterwards and generally the day hasn't been that good, but I'm not bummed about it. C'est la vie. I expect it will get a lot better during tonight. And then I'm going to watch Supernatural! :D :D And the Skins finale!!! :D

Truth be told, the SPN episode doesn't seem to be that good (at least not compared to last week's episode) and Skins... well, I never really got that Effy/Freddie/Cook triangle.

I really shouldn't be posting as I have to go and pack because I'm going to my dad's (that always stresses me out more than anything) for a week and I haven't packed yet. In honour of me now having my Christmas break, I will not pack too many "pretty" clothes. I'm talking soft I'm-going-to-sit-in-the-sofa-all-day kind of clothes. Since my dad doesn't have a wireless Internet access (why oh why not?) I won't be able to come online that much and whatnot so the drabble things you requested will have to be postponed (I won't forget, I PROMISE!). With me I'm taking The Golden Compass and Atonement. Yay for holiday reading!

I actually won't be bringing my laptop with me to dad's because it's kind of pointless to have it there if I can't access the Internet. Computers without Internet is for most parts useless anyway. I will miss OpenOffice though.

Our teachers were hilarious at our Christmas ending ceremony thing. I can see if I can get lauren_sark to give me the pictures I took so I can post it here. They were awesome! They made songs about the students, acted out a play which featured the faculty "off-stage" (i.e. outside the classroom at the teachers meetings). If you'll get to see the pictures, you'll understand how awesome it was.

Also, on Saturday I'm off to watch Enchanted with a couple of friends. It's going to be awesome!

Welcome supersonica, malonna and okelay to my flist :) I hope you'll have an awesome time here :)

This weekend is going... like any weekend at dad's. They take more consideration for dad's wife's daughter's cat than they do for us. And within like three hours dad completely dissed my love for X-Men (which sort of annoys me because I am intitled to enjoy anything I want to). I'm a geek when it comes to X-Men but I'm allowed to, aren't I? I mean, there are people who are 16+ and enjoy X-Men? What is so wrong with that? *glares*

Also, I'm thinking about pulling a hiatus. Not sure why. I love posting and all but recently it feels as if I have nothing to write. I probably wont though since when I do pull a hiatus, suddenly something interesting happens that I must speak about. Anyways, this is just me filling in what's going on with my dad and me. I'm still quite annoyed that he wants me to be like everyone else. I mean, if I had a choice between being alone or being like everyone else, I'd be alone without a doubt. Being like everyone else just blows.

And yes, I'm fully aware that I sound like a rebelious teenager right now that doesn't have the mental ability to act like anything over thirteen. (not that 13 isn't a good age it's just... when you are 13 you are very hormonial, at least I was).

Also, I can't wait for the new season of the Office to start :)

Happy birthday kazatomic!!

I know some wanted to know what happened with my dad this weekend and I can say it was pretty bad. Well, I'm fine - physically at least. That counts for something right?

Anyway, my dad started to discuss the situation in Palestine and with Israel and everything. Anyhow, my dad suddenly called my sister a rasist, because she asked a simple (sort of innocent childish) question why Israel didn't get enough and packed their bags. My dad, being pro-Israel, called my little 12-13 year old sister, a rasist and she's going through a tough time so she freaked. She started talking loud and crying her eyes out.

My dad started to scream back, using threatening gestures and stone cold voice to make her go back to her room. We all knew what was coming; me, my sister and I even think dad knew. My little sister refused. My dad ran up to her, she started running from him. Dad caught up with her, grabbed her arms hard and she struggled as dad almost dragged her across the room. Then he stopped at the end of the stairs and just threw her up the stairs (and they have this bendy stairs so she could very well have hit her head really really seriously). He really hurt her and he just went... psychotic. I haven't been that scared since the last time, last summer when he had a breakout like this.

Just... the look in his eyes. He shouldn't be allowed to have children. My whole body was shaking and I sent him the most vemon looking glares I could give him, as I always do when I get scared and I screamed to him that if he ever behaved like this again, I would be gone. My dad is rough and well... He was spooky and the bigggest regret he had about that was (and I'm quoting): "My biggest regret about this that I actually got so mad that I started cursing. That- that was a lowpoint. Huge disapppointment for me."

Then another couple of lovely words he threw out afterwards... well those I posted two entries ago. So he physically hurt my sister, although she didn't hit her head (thank God!), he scared the shit out of me and gave me even more mental issues as it is. And he's biggest regret is that he was cursing. Wonderful. Jackass.

I can't deal. I've been in pain and misery since the second I walked into that house and I'm just so happy that I'm back home now. I can't deal being there, I probably wont deal another day there. But I'll probably ignore it and go there next time I'm there - it's Father's Day. What a fucking joke.