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Huge happy birthday _krystleklear, I hope you have a great one :D Sorry I haven't been commenting lately.

Today I found out that my orthopedics doctor, whom I've had as a doctor ever since I was a child, has died. My mother saw his obituary in the paper. I mean, this is the doctor who drew a guy with a chimney-hat on my casket when I had surgery. He was part of the medical team when I was about to die as a two-three year old and he said he lost about 20 pounds that day. I only saw him a couple of months ago and he seemed totally fine.

I feel kind of sad, because even though I didn't "know" him, I knew him, you know? And in one way, it feels surreal. I don't think it's going to hit me until I go to a check up and he's not the doctor seeing me.

This kind of makes me wonder what you say to people. How they can be in your life one minute and then just disappear, as if they never existed. Makes me wonder what the last thing I said to him was.

I'm not emo, I'm just... it's a really strange feeling. Makes me think about all the times we take people for granted, how we take life for granted.