The replacement

I'm enjoying my precious moments of freedom and I'm sitting here at dad's, in silence and I'm having trouble about what I should do. I should probably study. But the most important file I have at my computer at mom's so... I guess that has to wait till Monday. Does anyone else have pre-working angst? I'm going to work tomorrow for a few hours and I'm literary going 'wtf where you thinking when you took this job?'. But once I start working, it feels fine.

I saw a Buffy episode today!!! Seriously, I miss this show like a long-lost sibling. I saw The Replacement and I think that's sort of lovely on so many levels. How Xander's feeling of being misplaced in his own life is paralleled with Riley and Buffy's relationship where Riley definitely knows that they are not in the same place. *sniff* I almost want to have a marathon, but the thing is that you then run into an episode that you think is sort of semi-good and then you sort of give up the project entirely. ... Or maybe that's just me.

If anyone has any superduper good fan fics or something like that, hand them over :) Doesn't necessarily have to be a shipper fic, but just anything. Hand it over, I'd love to read it. *misses fandom*

Death is your art

As I'm rewatching season five of Buffy (I'm sort of cruising through episodes at the moment, picking those who are interesting) I sort of remember how good it was. And how each of the relationships on the show are unique and they all interact with each other, which is pretty tough when you have a big cast. These days, you can have a cast of six-eight people but there are a certain few individuals that never interact with each other on screen even if they are both cast members. Buffy was never like that and I think that's why there are so many fics out there with so many different pairings. If you didn't like what canon was cooking you, you could always make your own meal (so to speak).

And I don't know... It's just excellent writing. For example, this quote is all kinds of beauty:

Spike: And the thing about the dance is, you never get to stop. Every day you wake up, it's the same bloody question that haunts you: is today the day I die? Death is on your heels, baby, and sooner or later it's gonna catch you. And part of you wants it... not only to stop the fear and uncertainty, but because you're just a little bit in love with it. Death is your art. You make it with your hands, day after day. That final gasp. That look of peace. Part of you is desperate to know: What's it like? Where does it lead you? And now you see, that's the secret. Not the punch you didn't throw or the kicks you didn't land. Every Slayer... has a death wish. Even you. The only reason you've lasted as long as you have is you've got ties to the world... your mum, your brat kid sister, the Scoobies. They all tie you here but you're just putting off the inevitable. Sooner or later, you're gonna want it. And the second- the second- that happens... You know I'll be there. I'll slip in... have myself a real good day.

Before, when I watched the show, I sort of really disliked Spike/Buffy but these days... I don't know. I kind of get it. There were a certain number of "mistakes" though, if you ask me, that made me not like it as much as I could've, but in a way, I sort of get it. I like it the way it is early season five. All that sexual frustration and anger and whatnot... that kind of makes sense. I haven't seen season six in a while so I can't be the judge of that (it's the only season I don't have on DVD) but season seven wasn't really a favourite in the Spike/Buffy department, for me anyway.

And who here had forgotten that Amy Adams had made a guest appearance on the show? I know I have! But when I saw it, it all came flooding back to me. Gosh, her guest appearance on the Office seems like such a long day away.

Eugh, work tomorrow.